Atok progress.....
Atok progress is not encouraging at all I am sad to say since been discharged on monday he has remained in bed and he is indeed very very weak.He is unable to stand up even with help and at one time he will sleep facing to his right but now even turning to his sides needs lots of energy ... poor bapak.He sleeps most time not knowing day and night as he doesn't want his curtain drawn thinking that people will look in.
He is still in delirium most times too asking for things which the maid don't understand most time too.Three important in his possessions are his passport,bankbook and wallet and whenever he opens his eyes and wanting his shirt he will asks for that 3 things.I felt sorry sometimes as his thinking is very far off just on wednesday itself he suddenly want to go for his appt and when I told him its next month ....
bapak ..... then I want to go home
me........bapak you are at home @ BB
bapak..... yes I want to go home to BB
me......yes this is home,you are at BB
bapak.....so I sleep here tonite till tomorrow?
me......you are sleeping here everyday on your own bed
bapak......oh I am at home?
and slowly between me and Wati we managed to coax him back to lay down.........
Now you tell me how do you feel when your own parents suddenly becomes like that?even writing this now I have tears at the corner of my eyes.Father was a very cheerful and always talking all info we want are always at his fingertips.Just ask him he will tell you from taking buses to anything you want to know.He watch the news from local to CNN to BBC world happenings and the sports channels..whose in and whose out...he will tell you.
When my sis Aini came he told her he is worried about his children ( thats us) and his children - what will happen to us??Aini told him not to think too much just try and relax and his answer "how to relax?the things keep coming to his mind".
I have made a point informing all my siblings to come daily and not all at same time during the weekends so that if one of us is around daily even if its just for an hour or so to talk to him so he won't feel lonely and to bring him back to the present.When I am at work he will be all alone with the maid Wati.So far responds is good ...Aini comes in everyday and talk to him since she is taking a break from work temporary.At times he will ask for some of the children and I will sms them to inform them 'father asking for you'....so cepat2 lah dtg....
Alhamdulillah as I am writing this bapak has walked with aids from my brother and Wati to the sitting room after so many days.
Please doakan ye bersama semoga atok akan cepat sembuh.
I managed to get hold of this DVD at last .... my sis bought it in JB 2 weeks ago and now that Aini and family has left for Darwin for a holiday at my aunt Ju's place I am borrowing it to watch one of this days.
till my next entry.................
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